Today was a game changer. Bear with me.
My parents came to visit me for my birthday. This was going to be the first year I wouldn't have seen them and I was very upset. They came, and then they left, and now I'm sort of left here feeling like I don't know what's happening anymore. Everything that could be going wrong is going wrong repeatedly, if that's even possible.
That's how I ended up in a type of a purgatory. Half of me wants to quit everything I've been working for and just go home to help my parents, and the other half is terrified of how close the first half is to actually packing its bags and leaving.
Somewhere between that I realised that strangers are everywhere.
Before you judge me for sounding cheesy, I'd like to point out that it is true, no matter what everybody says. You know a person, but you never really know them. You never really know what's in their head, or what they're thinking about. You see what they choose to show, or what they're comfortable showing.
And then I sort of realised that those 'halves' I was talking about are actually just two strangers within my own head.
I'm not sure where I'm going with that. I hope this doesn't sound like an existential crisis, although perhaps it is.
Anyhow, this opened my mind to some ideas to think about, such as:
- relationship between the two subjects in the image (as I want to experiment with a double portrait)
- relationship between the photographer and the subject
- exploration of the subject's mind
I'm also thinking about the distance between the camera and the subject. In most of my photos I'm close to the person I'm taking the image of.
However, it would be interesting to take it from further away, sort of like peaking at them? I don't think I can currently take a studio-like image without the subject actually knowing they're being photographed, but perhaps there can be an implication of oblivion.
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